My Philippians 3

If other people think they have reasons to put confidence in the flesh, I have more:  went to Sunday School since before I was out of diapers; had the lead in two Christmas programs and one Easter program; played Mary once; finished every AWANA handbook from Cubbies to JV twice; still know all the songs; earned the Timothy trophy; read through the Bible three and a half times; memorized countless verses; attended church every single Sunday for the past 30 years unless ill or on vacation; was an RA at a small Christian university for three years; attended many Bible studies, spriritual life retreats, and chapel services; taught Sunday school for four years; made snacks for vacation bible school; accepted Jesus into my heart at an early age; was baptised at age 14; worked in the kitchen at a Christian summer camp for two years; read countless Christian self-help books; and was a pastor's wife for two years. 
7But whatever was to my profit I now consider loss for the sake of Christ. 8What is more, I consider everything a loss compared to the surpassing greatness of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things. I consider them rubbish, that I may gain Christ 9and be found in him, not having a righteousness of my own that comes from the law, but that which is through faith in Christ—the righteousness that comes from God and is by faith. 10I want to know Christ and the power of his resurrection and the fellowship of sharing in his sufferings, becoming like him in his death, 11and so, somehow, to attain to the resurrection from the dead.

These words of Paul's have taken on a new and beautiful meaning to me in the last couple of days as I strive to begin in the begin by first grieving the loss of what I thought would save me.